I think I have finally reached an age where I can understand both Elias and Alexander.

Elias repeadedly moved closer to Alexander, only to pull away again. He came back, gave Alexander hope, and then left once more. Seeing Alexander become angry and walk away felt completely understandable to me. After being hurt again and again, anyone would eventually reach their limit. In fact, the ending, where Alexander returned and they reconciled, felt almost too perfect - something that could happen in a movie, but perhaps not so easily in real life. In reality, their relationship might have ended at that moment, and they might never have found their way back to each other.

The entire movie carries a quiet and gentle feeling from beginning to end. The innocence of the boys’ love creates a sense of warmth and happiness. One of the moments that touched me the most was when Elias’ mother discovered his feelings for Alexander. Her reaction was simply to love him and support him. There was no judgment, no rejection - only acceptance.

When i think back to the time when my mother found out that I had fallen in love with a boy, her reaction was completely different. She felt hopeless, as if life had lost its meaning. She believed that something was wrong with me. That experience left a deep and painful impression on me.

Because of that, whenever I watch movies like this and see families offering such immense emotional support, i cannot help but feel envious. I envy the kind of love and acceptance that seems so natural in those families.

But after all these years, I have also learned to understand my parents. The way they see the world was shaped by the culture and environment they grew up in. The were taught to hold on tightly to certain beliefs and expectations, and sometimes those beliefs become a limitation that prevent them from seeing other possibilities.